I’m an emotional wreck when it comes to animals

I can’t read a story about a pet or watch a video without going down the emotional sinkhole. And every time I end up crying. It might not be a rainbow bridge incident but just some puppers/kittens fooling around their humans but I can’t go through the thing without welling up. I constantly think and repent my younger days when I was completely oblivious about my pet puppers Mittu. He was the gentlest of souls, a white floofy fur baby who would go crazy on seeing you back from school/college. Yes, I did have my moments with him, I did hug him and carry him around. But now when I think back nothing was enough and he deserved way better.

We lost him when he was close to 10 and I was not a wee bit bothered because my priorities were always about my fucking self. Now when I see a puppy/dog in the streets I try my best to feed them and pet them and I hold my breath when I hear a puppy crying somewhere outside thinking someone might be hurting him. I’m going crazy with all this.

Even the wholesome videos of pets in Reddit makes me cry. I cry myself to sleep almost every night thinking about my Mittu and all the other puppers in and around my home. I would love to start rescue volunteering but I haven’t figured how to.

Are any of guys in a similar boat where the pet videos make you emotional beyond the point of repentance? How have you overcome this? What did you do to get out of this misery? Need help. I’m staying alone since the last month or so and this regret is going to fuck me up pretty bad. I daydream about rescuing a puppy or kitten and giving them a forever home. There’s a void in my heart, my soul, my being which doesn’t allow me to sleep peacefully.